Reflections: Karma

Karma
2/11/09

"Every action has an equal and opposing reaction." Issac Newton


If Newton is to be believed, my decisions have a profound effect, that pushes

outward like a wave to effect and sway the actions of others. And in time, these

decisions will come back to me, the wave will reflect in my direction, and I will see

the fruits of my conviction. I, like Oppenheimer, will look upon my creations, and be

overjoyed, or filled with despair. The web's strands will have spread far and wide,

for good or evil. But when that time comes, and I gaze back at all I have done,

what will I see? What will the wave bring back to me? I have tried hard to maintain

a level of decency and morality, so that when judgment rains I will not regret the

evidence, and will remain without fear at my sentence.


And yet despite all of my strives for a higher good, I have done evil, been tempted

to sin, and have engaged with wrongful people. Surely an over-exaggeration, for I

have never murdered or done drugs, stolen or broken the law. And yet those

nearest me have committed wrongs, and I ignored it. And yet I have done things

against my better judgment, but I don't listen. All of my talk of morals and

righteousness mean nothing in the face of unbiased truth, and that truth is that I

have at times compromised what I believe in. No willful act of sin I have enacted

has yet branded me in line with wrongfulness, but when that unmerciful tide comes

in, and my decisions are reflected back upon myself, will that final judgment be one

of holy light? Or eternal hellfire?

SP